When heaven opens up
Angels fall down
This is in honor to you
The birth story:
It was a Thursday
The day after Wednesday, which is a normal fact but in our lives it changed everything in a very meaningful and peaceful way for bigger plans to come.
Wednesday’s are or now were, my full days just with Orion Phoenix, my first born one.
This Wednesday it was a special one, I felt more energetic and
The last weeks I would be more tired and felt the pregnancy came to an end but this Wednesday, it was meant to be one last adventurous day with my FIRST BORN ORION PHOENIX which shall stay forever in my and hopefully even our memory.
I let him walk next to me with his own little mini stroller, even if I had to run behind him most of the time, I would say yes to all of it.
We had so much fun, just walking both our stroller down to the main city parc where we had a stop of observing the birds and collecting the most beautiful and biggest leaves that autumn would send down the lane.
Leaves we would paint later that day in all sorts of colors…
I know now, thinking back that day, Aeon’s birth story started way before his actual
Because the story is intertwined now…there is a brother and it was that day as if he gave us one last perfect day just for me and his older brother Orion Phoenix.
We made the best of it, as if we knew by tomorrow it won’t be the same no more.
WHAT A BEAUTIFUL ENCOUNTER, WHAT A MIRACLE LIFE IS.
BEFORE I KNOW I AM THE MOTHER OF TWO.
BUT WHO CAN PREPARE YOU FOR THIS.
YOU JUST HAVE TO FLOW IN IT.
Born on the night the veils were thin between the two worlds of death and life.
Who would have thought that Samhain is the night that makes me a mother of two perfect
Two days before the due date you came to us.
But we do not believe in being due. We believe in being born the time that is right for us whatever time that shall be.
A Light came to me the night before and I knew the next day it’s time for him to be born.
I had a special call that night with
After that call
It was an incredible journey of surrendering to waves that came and left for a week before and tested me in patience and the ability to just let go.
(It started with a real body cleanse exactly Thursday a week before)
That Thursday I woke up with contractions and the bloody show but kept going on about the day like any other day.
We had a midwife appointment this very morning and I went there as scheduled.
The moment I left her cabinet I had to stand still and breath through strong contractions that came every 5 minutes and brought up
I am astonished of what a female body does and can endure and the journey of birthing is for sure the most opening journey with pain and love that flow into each other.
All I can say
It was not short it was not all smooth but it was perfect and a miracle all in all.
Just a 10 weeks before the birth I decided to do a home birth and trust my body, myself and my intuition to dare to allow a birth as I dream about…
Birthing is never something you can plan out, I know that very well, and my first labor showed me and taught me well.
But why should we keep living in fear just because we had an experience that might trigger it?
I questioned this a lot, why should I not trust my own self to dare to wish and at least try again…why not?
I said YES TO MYSELF RIGHT IN THIS PRESENT MOMENT I LIVE NOW…who knows what comes after.
Our midwife, one of the only ones, that does home births in Geneva, received us with a clear Yes even though we were quite far ahead…For me and
So grateful for all and everyone that supported me to do this at home and face my fear of letting go of what was a passed journey of mine.
I stayed in the presence and got tested again but I stayed centered and focused and let it just happen.
On the mystical magical Samhain Night the
Surrounded by Love and Vibrations My best doula and love Christopher gave me with all his heart.
So grateful for the midwife who follows us with so much knowledge and calmness.
Birthing at home was the most beautiful and peaceful experience I could ask or wish for.
I am beyond grateful that all went well, which I am clearly aware that it can not being taken for granted.
Birthing at home was deeply healing for me as a woman, daugther and mother clearing many blockages and fears away not just in my life but other patterns I took with me for way too long.
Birthing at home was surreal and as real as it can get at the same time.
Birthing at home and in the water was my dream and sometimes dream become reality with soft serene and peaceful breathing.
Birthing at home was the most empowering act I could ever take in place and shall not be forgotten that I played the main act in it all, but not alone, together with my angel AEON SOL!!!!
To put it in words will never be easy, it is the one story in life that just stays best in our hearts.
What happened and how it happened are just moments of memories that are blurred and crystal clear both together.
A baby always transforms a life and nothing is like how it was before.
A month with us now and it feels like a whole year has passed.
They say your heart expands and they are right.
It feels like you have so much love to give to the new baby and first born one that you all of a sudden realize there is also a man behind this all…
It feels like I haven’t slept in years again although it has just been four weeks of sleeping in 2-3 hour cycles.
It feels like so many things but clear is:
WHEN HEAVEN OPENS UP,
THE ANGELS COME DOWN AND MY DEAR AEON SOL YOU ARE CLEARLY ONE OF THEM, DROPPING INTO MY LIFE OUR LIVES AND CHANGING ALL OF US IN EXTREME SPEED FOR THE BETTER ONCE AGAIN…
Growth brings fortune and we need to prove we can show up and hold it tight
I love you my Sol Bear, my Angel, my Infinite Light- Aeon Sol
31.10.2019 never forgotten in our lives.
We did it again.
Why do I share this:
Because I need to write it down to remember and because I want you to know that sometimes dreams become reality and we need to trust our own self. You are so strong, never forget, birthing is at the end of the day a human right and it can be as natural as it is or as medical as you want it or need it to be…but lucky we have it both because it is needed to save lives…and that goes for both ways around.